I felt so alone for so long. I mean it was only for about a year. I met this one lady at my first doctor's appointment and I still felt alone. I felt like she was just another mom and couldn’t understand my world although she was living with HIV too. I was mistaken because she's now a pillar in my life. I was only 23 years old. I needed someone desperately who wasn’t a gay male or having issues with substance abuse or neglect. I needed someone who was like me. Young, Black, Female, and could relate to what I was trying to wrap my mind around. This ridiculous HIV diagnosis that's man made and a punishment from God (OLD THOUGHTS).
After listening, reading, researching, and finally deciding, I would make some noise because someone has got to say something! I can’t be the only young black female living with this HIV especially in Atlanta. I was given a few questions and scenarios to consider and I made the decision to speak up and share that I was HIV positive to a group of Spelman College students and other older panelists living with AIDS through a local non-profit.
I was given so much faith that I was doing the right thing and created a wave of impact that I took on a torch where the flame doesn’t burn out, but I have at times. Specifically, from me making time to make peace with my HIV diagnosis. The center of my life had become a choice of life or death. It was definitely up to me but it had to start with forgiveness and anger. I have chosen LIFE & Peace.
Let’s just say I’m no longer feeling alone.
w/ Love & Light,
Masonia B. Traylor
P.S. Now I’m headed to PWN Conference where I’m 1 out of 350 women living w/ HIV/AIDS
#ShesPositive #NotAlone
Why Masonia wants to be part of A Girl Like Me: I have been considering being part of A Girl Like Me for about 4 years. I understand my why now. I know that by sharing my moments of depression and resilience surrounding my HIV diagnosis will not only be therapeutic for myself but also healing for others all around the world.
Hello sis
Masonia my dear lil sister ! I want to welcome you officially to our sisterhood and want to tell you thank you for all the amazing work that you do . Love you