I Am

Submitted on Aug 31, 2022 by  Positive Sunbeam

I am understanding the trauma I have experienced and how it has affected me. I have done nothing wrong, there is no one to blame. Life circumstances create opportunities for personal growth.

Death of my father at age 12, marital betrayal, loss of a business, and having to relocate away from my only son, my family. Events I have endured.

I don't regret my decisions, rather I long for different circumstances that would have resulted in different choice options. I accept I made the best decisions possible with the situation before me. I made difficult, life altering changes. By myself, out of survival and without a trusted mentor, prompted by a trauma out of my control. I did the best I could with what I had where I was. Changing language from what is repeated in my 'monkey mind' is important to break the cycle of language that "I am not enough."

I know now . . . and tell myself daily:
I love you (with a smile in the mirror),
I am lovable,
I am free to be me,
I am worthy of joy, family, and connection.
My life is worth living.

And yours is too.


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Submitted by boseolotu

Yes how I wish! I could take that bold steps too!
Oh I wish, I could be free to be Melissa for me and be happy for me.
Thank you so much for posting and for sharing.
Thank you!

Submitted by Positive Sunbeam

Hi Bose,  Very nice to meet you I apprecaite your smiling face!  I read your blog and am inpired.  My intent is learning new skills contributing to end HIV and stigma and becoming an effective advocate as you have. thank you for leading the way!

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