My heart broke I can't believe it. My heart tore, then broke, and BOOM! I am beating on my chest, crying, and screaming, Oh My God! PLEASE HELP ME! Thank God I was initially on the phone with a friend who encouraged me to call 911. "911, what's your emergency?" said Dispatch. "I don’t know if I'm having a panic attack or a heart attack." I said frantically. I could not believe that for the first time in my life I'm on the phone with 911 with a REAL life emergency. "Do you want Ambulance or Fire Fighter ma'am?" asked dispatch. "Ambulance, ambulance, ambulance," I muttered. I just couldn't seem...
MasoniaTraylor's blog
Blogging is something I've considered doing for a while however I didn't think it'd be this difficult. My name is Masonia, meaning "She Leads". However, somewhere along the way I got lost I think, maybe I was confused and got stuck or maybe I just took a breather as a pause. I just know that what typically came to me easily became challenging all of a sudden. Expressing my thoughts was suppressed by emotions of anger and utter disappointment which led to biting my tongue and not saying much at all. Sometimes not saying anything speaks louder than words. Quietness can sound very loud but in my...
I feel my most safest when I'm in an airplane amongst the clouds In the sand at the foot of an ocean or near flowing water With my boyfriend With my children Sometimes with my mom I feel safe when I dance I feel safe when I read books I feel safe when I cry I feel safe when I drink tea I feel safe when I hug I feel safe when I dress up I feel safe when I cook beautiful meals I feel safe when I paint I feel safe when I eat popsicles I feel safe when I drink root beer I feel safe when I'm close to God I feel safe when I'm with lynnise I used to feel safe about my healthcare I used to feel safe...
There are things that people may not recognize about me because they've just started getting to know me in the last 8 years
I felt so alone for so long. I mean it was only for about a year. I met this one lady at my first doctor's appointment and I still felt alone.