Geez!! Anyone else feeling really really tired, exhausted and unmotivated?! I have been for awhile, and I can't even blame covid although it certainly hasn't helped. I was talking with a coworker about how my bestie has all this energy and I just can't seem to hang anymore BUT years ago you couldn't stop me; I was always on the go. And that's when she said it: "A body in motion stays in motion and a body at rest stays at rest." ? Mind blown, lol... Like, how could I have forgotten such a simple concept?! I can admit things in life have caused me to become idle or complacent, to be okay with...
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May 23, 2021 marked five years that I've been living with HIV.
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I have been HIV positive since 2016, almost five years. When I thought about sharing my story and status publicly, I knew I would eventually attend conferences where I could meet many other amazing women living openly with the condition.
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I recently took an impromptu trip to the Dominican Republic for some R&R with my girls! And while COVID is still very much a factor, I just kept repeating YOLO in my head.
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Dear Advocate, 2021, so far, has been a year of focusing on me and choosing me above all else. Too often I have dimmed my light and emptied my cup for the needs of others.
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According to the CDC, in 2018, Black/African American people accounted for 13% of the US population but 42% (16,002) of the 37,968 new HIV diagnoses in the United States and dependent areas.
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2020 has been a year for us all. I know mine has been met with heartache, joy and so many things in between. But since being diagnosed in 2016, I finally decided 2020 was the year I would date and be unapologetically HIV+.
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It's been awhile since I've put my words together for you to read! Covid has really put a damper on things and stripped me of my desire to do anything.
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Often times, and no disrespect to anyone who has said it, but... not being tied to anything isn't all it's cracked up to be. Let me explain...
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Growing up in Paterson New Jersey where the population is predominantly Black, it was inevitable that I would share space with an individual who identified as black. However here there was never a question of separation. Black, Hispanic or white it didn't matter; we were all in the struggle together.