Thank You

For years I accepted my status but still I blamed you and never really forgave. As much as I thought I did forgive by accepting my status, it showed in my actions and my thoughts how I really felt.

Although I never forgave you for this, I do thank you for making me stronger. I thank you for showing me that I matter. Thank you for showing me that I don't have to settle for less. I mean yes, it took you passing me HIV, and yes, it took me getting that positive result to open my eyes. But because of that status, I have grown so much.

Although you died without apologizing or even acknowledging that it happened, I thank you for waking me up. For so long I was always making quick and bad decisions and going down the wrong paths. I mean if you could see me now - thinking before I take action, publishing books, blogging about my feelings, sharing my personal story with others, actually going for the things in life that I want and know that I deserve, not holding my tongue to make someone else's feelings more important than mine. I mean, yes, I still have more ways to grow, but it all started with you. So again I Thank You.