I want them to see me

AMANDLA! meaning power to u!!!

Hi

It is not a problem if you dont want everyone knowing about your status, it's totally up to you, take your time, the time will come when you are ready and it wont matter who says wot, as long as you have accepted yourself, besides y shud u disclose to everyone especially to the people ur not sure if they guinely care about you.

All I can really say is that you are FABULOUS and NEVER let anyone tell you, differently.

I am sure there is a deep fear to disclose your status because of the way one will think about you and/or treat you. But, if they were your TRUE friends they will probably cry with you at first but then be supportive in everything you do. When you do reveal to your selected group of people, maybe you should try giving them a long speech about treating you the same.

As long as YOU can see YOU and accepted yourself the rest will fall into place.
As one of MJ songs says, "Im starting with the man in the mirror...."

What you are describing is exactly why I don't tell people. I want them to see me. I don't want them to fear me or see me as 'sick'. I figure a time will come when I do tell, but now is not the time for me.

@ Jae, what is most important is self acceptance and self love. If you have disclosed to your family and those closest to you, and they have accepted your status, and give you support abundantly, then no need to worry about others. I believe that those who "will" have a problem should deal with it. It is their problem and not yours. The best they can do for themselves is to get educated and learn as much as they can about HIV. It knows no colour, religion or creed. You are fabulous and keep on walking tall.