Im new. And so happy and scared and feeling judged that I had found this page. Today makes 10 months that I found out my status! How i found out? my husband on his death bed because he didn't know he was positive!! I couldn't stop crying last night. Part of me wanted him back because he loved me and adored me he was my best friend, then the guilt set in like how can i love someone who just took sentenced me to death?
my life flashed before my eyes. today feels like day 1 when i found out. i have children from a previous marriage who still do not know my status, my family doesn't know.
I feel by myself and I feel sick to my stomach every day. how will I ever be in a new relationship , how do u tell someone I like you but by the way im posiitve. my dreams my hopes my goals I don't feel like myself anymore. depression is freaking real..
where do I go from here.......
