Why we cannot forget?
I remember when I was first diagnosed with HIV I learned about being undetectable. I was so excited about the word in itself. It meant I almost didn’t have it. I had also read about the stories pre-CDC stamp on the U=U campaign. People would write in forums about how hard it is to pass it from woman to man or how the medication makes it so you are pretty much not able to pass it. Medicine would not officially say this was a true statement. One of my biggest memories from being newly diagnosed was when medication was always watch and wait. If your numbers stay low, no medication for you. I was excited because I could keep everything about HIV to me myself and I. There was no medication to be questioned or unusual doctors visits. The goal for me was always to forget. Forget that I had it, forget how it made me feel, forget that I had not forgiven myself, forget it all. Then one day I looked up and it had been a year since I had seen a doctor.
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