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I survived the Holidays… Yippeeeee! Now for the New Year! I always love family drama during the holiday (SARCASM), hateful things and actions with the MIL (Mother-in-law). Too bad she just can’t accept the things she cannot change. I guess she doesn’t realize who makes up the schedule in our home. I will not expose my family to hatefulness at the holidays, or anytime for that matter. I am happy we got to spend this Christmas with extended family. I am not use to having little ones around; it was so much fun, AND BUSY! I am looking forward to a healthy, Happy New Year and to get some of the...

~ You always see people wearing the red ribbon supporting AIDS awareness. I wonder when nobody’s looking are they worthy of wearing it. Would they knowingly let someone in their home that is suffering from HIV or AIDS? Would they give them a place to stay? Would they eat food prepared by them? I find it interesting to see all these people up in arms ready to support someone as long as is from arms length. Why are we still dealing with prejudices? ~ HIV/AIDS is not a thing of the past. The faces have changed, but we are still dealing with the stigma every day. ~ I just read Kate’s interview. I...

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I know that some of you have had difficulties in this area. All the people on this website are, or at least state that they are, HIV+. I am fortunate that I am not having to deal with this. Just letting you all know I have never personally used this service, but I do know someone that has used this website successfully and had found a partner. But I am not sure if it is available in all areas of the world. I wish only the best for you all in all areas of your lives. I am grateful I have a wonderful relationship. If you are looking, I wish you all the best also. http://personals.poz.com/ It can...

My Bucket list 1. Graduate from college 2. See my youngest son graduate from High School 3. Have a photograph taken with my entire family (In Laws included) somewhere beautiful 4. Ride in a hot air balloon 5. Help entrepreneurs in third world countries through ~ www.kiva.com 6. Go to Italy 7. Hike Machu Picchu ~ Peru 8. Make a difference in someone else’s life

I have been thinking back to when I was diagnosed, almost 19 years ago. I have fooled most people. They look at me and see just another 40 year old. An average healthy adult with kids, bills, a job and school work. I am just amazed that prejudices are still there. I am angry that I can’t wear a t-shirt with the quote on it that states: “The New Face of HIV.” I want to scream it from the roof. We as women need to get together and get this information to our daughters! An article by the CDC states: “…even though more men than women have HIV, women are catching up. In fact, if new HIV infections...

Spent time the last few days with girls I went to high school with. I had a great time. Most of them became successful people in business. Some became successful parents and some successful drinkers... I was so happy to hang out with them and get caught up on the happenings in everyones lives. I have only dilvulged my status to a few people. I really don't know what would happen if I just had a few too many cocktails and busted out with the whole "pass me the bread, I am HIV+" I am healthy and thanks to modern medicine I am thankful that I can have girl weekend with the old friends... I hope...

Things are busy lately around my house. We are getting ready to move in 2 weeks. I feel this is the best move for our family. You are all in my thoughts. I am getting ready to participate in some of the AIDS walks in California. I hope to have the opportunity to see you there. Jae

I really never was afraid of dying. I was afraid of leaving my children orphans. I have different fears today. I worry that my children learn from my mistakes. I hope that they will live their lives knowing that they did everything to prevent getting HIV. Last week my youngest son came to me and told me he was gay. He is only 14 years old. I deal with homosexual men all the time. Most of which are sick. I sat my son down and told him that his father and I love him. No matter what label he put on himself. We have always been concerned about our children protecting themselves gay or straight. As...

Today as I sit at work in between patients I was contemplating about something prolific to write today. I stumbled across a letter on Facebook that was posted by The Well Project. It was a letter that Elton John wrote to Ryan White, 20 years after Ryan’s death. Ryan died at the age of 18, on April 8, 1990. He would have been 38 years old this year. It really makes me think about the first time I saw him interviewed. It was on the Phil Donohue show and I was fascinated by this poor kid’s story. I was amazed how he was so young and ill, yet seemed so mature. I was about 2 years older than he was...